Sad post I found on reddit

I found this post on reddit a few days ago and I thought I'd share it here. It was written by   Readmynameandchillax on reddit.com

I wasn't going to post anything on here but... Lots of memories stirred up, for good or bad.

I wish I could've married her. I should've married her. We were best friends from the age of six. She was the first girl I ever kissed, although I was practicing to kiss another girl at the time! Never got around to that, she had my heart from that moment on. I was actually the second boy she kissed because I told her my friend David liked her. A dumb attempt to deal with my feelings I guess, or a fear of rejection. She was way too good for me. She later told me she only kissed him to make me jealous. It did the trick! I remember playing in a football match after I saw them together, and even when he didn't have the ball I piled into him! Poor guy.

We watched movies together in all-night marathons, really cheesy stuff that made us both laugh. I can't bear to watch those films now. We used to cycle out in the countryside for hours, just exploring, then got summer jobs at competing seaside attractions, trying to out-sell each other on ice cream and hot dog stands. She always won. Even I preferred to eat at her stand!

She was going to be a doctor, I was going to film school. She was better than me in so many ways. Never quite knew what she saw in me. Even when I was a kid I knew she had been ill on and off for years. Finally she was diagnosed with acute myeloid leukemia. She fought like hell and suffer through it too. I never would've been able to put up the fight she did. When she died she was barely able to hold my hand. She was 21 years and 20 days old. It was a month before my 21st birthday. She had said she wanted to be around to see me blow out my candles but she just couldn't hang on any longer. Just before she passed she apologised because she was going to miss my party. I wanted to cry like a baby but I didn't to do so in front of her. Didn't want to burden her. There was nothing else I could do for her.

I did go to film school. I became a screenwriter. And I write about her in every damn story I touch. I know my life would have been different if she'd lived. It's easier to do what you want when it's just you, never have to take anyone else's feelings into account. And I'd never have met the friends I have, who I treasure beyond words.

But I still love her and I think about her every day. It's been more than ten years and I'm still not over her. Sometimes I think it's unfair on the women I date because I go in just knowing they won't measure up to my now impossibly high standards. But I'm an official "good guy" and never hurt anyone if I can help it.

Sometimes I think I'd give the whole universe just to spend one more day with her. She was the best person I ever knew.

I miss her.

Keep in mind I did not write this post. I found it a few days ago on reddit, and it touched me deeply. I was in a similar situation and this post brought back so many memories for me. You can read about my similar story here, or you can see this original post on reddit here.

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300 followers

Wow 300 already? It's only been about 3 months since I started blogging. Seems like I get about a hundred new followers every month. I honestly never thought my blog would be read by anyone. It's just my encounters throughout my love life, various dating tips, advice, and a few random thoughts here and there. I never imagined it would grow this much in such a short amount of time. I honesty never even expected a single reader. I just wanted a place to write about my love life, and the Myspace blog section sucked. So that's why I came here. I know my last few blog posts haven't been as lengthy as my usual posts, but writing those long posts really takes me a long time because I can't really type all that fast. I still have a lot more to write about though so stick around. I've barely even scratched the surface of my personal love life and I have plenty more women to write about. Robin and Kelly were probably my best relationships, and if you haven't read about them yet, you should. I still can't believe people actually like my blog and follow it. I guess I have all of you to thank for that. So I thank you.

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Girls I secretly have a crush on.

I've dated more than a hundred different women. Some of them I've had long, fulfilling, relationships with. Some of them have been one night stands. Over all I've had a very enriched love life, but there's a ton of women out there that I would give anything for a date with them. It's a very long list, but I've managed to narrow it down to my top five. So here they are, in no particular order.

Mila Kunis
Ever since I first saw her on that 70's show, I've always had a thing for her. She's very attractive and most of my friends, both guys and girls, tend to agree. The main reason why I find her so attractive, is because she looks a lot like a girl I used to date, and I had a great relationship with her. I know it may seem like an odd reason, but it makes sense to me. Here's a little eye candy.

Felicia Day

Felicia Day plays a character in a popular web series called The Guild. She plays a gamer nerd that's hopelessly addicted to an MMORPG. Her character in the series is very feminine, neurotic, down to earth, level headed, and even a little nerdy. Although I do have a thing for pale skinned redheads, and I do find her extremely physically attractive, I must admit, my attraction to her is based more on her personality. She has every thing I look for in a woman.

Oprah Winfrey

That's right I said Oprah Winfrey. My attraction to a woman isn't just based on her physical beauty, age, or personality. Oprah is one of the wealthiest women in the world, and she's very generous with her money. I'd be lying if i didn't admit that I find that somewhat sexy. I know it's a very shallow reason to have a crush on someone, but I don't care. It's my blog and I'll have a crush on whoever I want, for whatever reason. In my own opinion, women with money and power are very attractive, regardless of what they look like.

Allison Crow

Allison Crow is a musician from the UK. Although I find her very physically attractive, I'm more attracted to her talent as a musician. Personally I don't care from female singers, or religious music, but after seeing her video on youtube, my views changed. She has the voice of an angel. 

Tiffani Amber Thiessen

Growing up in the 90's I used to watch a lot of television. It was nearly impossible to not see an episode of Saved by the Bell back then. It was a very successful show and they ran reruns of it on nearly every channel for several years. Tiffani was one of my first crushes, and my attraction to her was based on her physical beauty. She was absolutely gorgeous back then, and she still is even today.

That concludes my top five list, in no particular order.

Feel free to leave a comment on what girls/guys you secretly have a crush on.

(pictures of mila kunis came from maxim.com)

(pictures of tiffani amber theissen came from maxim.com)

(all other pictures came form imgur.com)

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Without You - Mark Gormley

I came across this video a few days ago, and I thought it was hilarious. It just goes to show, no matter what you look like, or how awful your music is, musicians always get the girl.

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Have you ever wondered...

Jim Gaffigan

(picture came from jimgaffigan.com)

Have you ever wondered why, when you're single, all you see are couples? 

But then, when you're in a relationship, all you see are hookers?

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Two Hundred Followers

This is how I felt when I reached two hundred followers.

When I started this blog, just two months ago, I never thought so many people would be interested in what I had to say. Thank you all for your support.


~Bones

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